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Alone in my thoughts

I don’t know about you but I am a person who spends quite a bit of time to myself and often in silence with my thoughts. When we lose someone dear to us it’s easy to get in our heads a lot. Though there are days of sorrow we don’t want to allow ourselves to forget the past challenges that have been conquered so we aren’t at risk to repeat any mistakes.

As we navigate through grief, we may find ourselves reflecting on the challenges we’ve overcome in the past. As a reminder of the times perhaps when we were ready to heal from other wounds. Some past wounds can cause deep pain, and people often try to mask this pain with food, alcohol, drugs, cigarettes, work, or anything in-between. However, everything will catch up with you, and all the emotions you’ve tried to cover up will bleed through leaving a stain on your life. It takes grit to confront these wounds, to delve deep inside to the core of the pain that is holding you back and to make peace with the memories so that you can move forward and live a beautiful life, the life that was meant for you to have.

I’ve had moments when I’ve been alone in my thoughts when I think about all the things I ever wanted and never received compared to all the needs I ever needed and never did without. I thought about that again and again. And the things that I once desire either became insignificant or a time I thank God for unanswered prayers. The conclusion I came to is this, to live in this life with everything you need is affirmation that you are cared for and loved. Because of this we can be humbled and kind. In my opinion, this is a life rich and lived in full abundance.